I'm like a vulcano ... erupting without a warning.
I'm like a fire ... destroying illusions.
I'm like a river ... never turns back.
I'm like a stars ... making wishes.
I'm like a night ... promissing the day.
I'm like a sound ... resound laugh.
I'm like a raindrop ... live for the moment.
I'm like wind ... so hard to stop me.
I'm like a hope ... so easy to loose me.
Sweet like a chocolate...
Bitter pill to swallow for some...
Good from the character...
Bad when I feel danger...
Calm when I'll count to 10...
Nervous all my life...
Happy always trying to be...
Sad when I'm depressed...
Frank when needs to...
Lier when don't want to hurt...
Smiling as my consider mark...
In tears when my soul and heart hurts me...
Open to people which I like and love...
Withdrawn when I'm scared...
Confident more and more...
Sometimes nice only seemingly...
Mean when I get mad...
Prudent, I have my rules...
Loutish when it's needed...
Know how to criticise...
Sometimes hurt others....
Trusty too much...
Proud when I have a reason...
Emotional, take everything too much serious...
Sometimes too much not serious...
Living for love...
Love...
Hurt...
Sometimes fucking bitch...
I can be a murder for you...
I can be an artist for you...
I can be fucking bitch for you...
I can be best friend...
I can spend nice nights with men...
I can make disgusting womens life...
I can get you, I can let you...
I can be the best student...
I can be stupid...
I can betray you and you too...
I can be inteligent and make an idiot from myself...
I can kill, but only for you...
I can bespit you in one second, but remeber that it's only a game and emotions...
I can suffer for you...
I can give me life for you and if it will be needed I'll do it for sure...
I'll never let you die...
Becouse I live only for you...
I'm living in a wrong place.
I should live somewhere else,
far away from here,
close to him.
Even when you are
far away I'll run to
you to be closer.
When I'll be near
you'll feel sweet taste.
When I'll stand next to
you - you'll understand
it's me.
It's not who I am.
I like to think that I'm normal.
I laugh.
I get mad.
I hurt.
I think guys suck sometimes.
But when you're in the spot light everything seems good.
Sometimes I feel like I have it worst cuz I always have to keep my guard up.
I dont know who to trust.
I dont know who wants to date me for who i am.
Or who wants to be my friend for who I REALLY am.
Does a human can be happy? If every day we have some problems. How we can be happy in this situation? I'm thinking all the time: will I ever be happy? Is it possible? I had great weekend with such a great person. I back home and this person destroyed everything. All my peace. I'm trying to not be so serious about some things, really. But it's hard. One of the hardest things I was trying to do. I can't handle it. I'm alone. I have only one person I can trust. And she won't leave me. And I know I can cry at front of her. Sometimes I think that I'm happy when I see the sun. When there are no clouds on the sky. When I'm with my friends, when I'm laughing. Sometimes when I'll get bunch of white roses. But when I have just a little bit of time to think, I think about sad things. And I'm getting sorrowful. Happiness. It's a feeling we experience when everything's all right. But it never can't be all right at all. We always have some problems. Even this small ones.
I'm trying all the time. Really. Every time. Every time starting again. And every time I'm laugh down. Nobody understands. Nobody appreciate. Nobody want to understand. Why it's so? Why? Why nobody will think what he's doing? Why you all need to hurt? And why it hurts so much? What I did wrong? What's wrong with me? Why I always have bad luck? Why everyone around are happy, why not me? Just a little happines. Everyone have a reason to be happy. Why not me? Why it's so? Why bad luck is always following me? Why I can't forget? Why you don't want to give up? Why you can't leave me alone and just go away for ever? Why I need to labour becouse of you? Why I hate you all so much? Why I hate myself? Is it my fault? Is it my fault that all this world is so cruel? Why no one loves me...? Do I really want so much? I want only real feeling. Why I feel so presume? Why I want to kill you all? Why I want to kill myself? Why it's enough for me? Why I'm silent? Why I'm not laughing? Why I'm not the same like in the past? Is it becouse of that what happened month ago? I can't forgive it to myself. Why I've done that? Why I still remeber that? Why it'll stay in my mind for ever? Why I had taken this pills? Why I had to destroy it? Why I had to destroy something, what was part of us? Why we are so irresposible? Why you are such an ass? You both. Why I feel guilty? Why I want to cry all the time? Why I don't want to do anything? Why it's enough for me? Why nobody want to help me? Why everyone just put out my mistakes? Why they don't ask how I'm feeling? Why this all is so weighing down?
And when heart will stop beating,
It falls into a dream,
Some film is cuted,
History of life written all this years,
And when you'll close your eyes for the last time,
Other's people life's still hanging,
Someone's again born,
Someone's gone for ever,
It doesen't matter how much we want to run away,
It doesen't matter how many roads we'll cross,
Everything comes to the death,
Maybe that's why we need to live,
untill we won't meet with
destiny.